I wonder how you learn to live by yourself? It is truly not an easy task. When I was in the nursing home, I relished everyone just leaving me alone, but at home I long for a visit. Everyday I turn on the news and the famous song writers, band leaders, and writers who got me through my beginnings in my early teens, have died and more and more at a closer area to my age. Next I go to the home town paper on my computer and read the obituaries to check on loved ones passing into another life. I fix me a meal for the day and feed my cats and dogs, take my meds and lay back down.
Last night I watched a special on the influenza epidemic in 1919 and realized just how bad something can become. They finally decided it was being spread when you opened your mail each day. Currently I am kind of under house arrest and will be until spring. July 25, 2017 I had open heart surgery and can not take a flu shot so they gave me a pneumonia shot and ask me to stay in and limit my access to my grandkids and anyone else. Were I not blind in my left eye, I would read and sew, but I am totally blind in that eye. Thank you Lord for leaving my right one going and for letting Google put up with me on here. The funny part is I have learned alot about life since I have gotten old. The unfunny part is two thirds of my family have deserted me for one reason or another. Three years and nothing from six of my family...Two daughters and four grandkids....Two miles away and I guess I make them uneasy. I would not be here were it not for my son and his family but what a burden I must be at times.
Well, so much for this sad story. "Everyone cries sometimes" and today is my day to feel sorry for myself...tomorrow I will be better, I promise love Pokie
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